@eatyourkimchi
Simon, we’d like an answer
Hey! It’s really simple:
Because I naughty naughty.
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I typed this long message and everything got fucking deleted. Screw this place.
Imma try to reproduce it to the best of my memory capabilities..
Here goes -
I’m glad you’re not mad. Because right now when tumblr was loading I wondered what I would do if I could find a reply. I guess I’d be upset. Because I wouldn’t want to lose a friend like you because of something so stupid. Not because I’m still in love with you. I think.
Its just something I want to do. For me. And I know its not very practical. But I’ve never been practical. I’ve only pretended. You seem to think I was. I must have been good at pretending. Could have fooled myself.
Btw, this is turning out to be nothing like the first post. So yeah.
It hurts. Not just because I have a throbbing headache from sleeping for only five out of the last 48 hours. It hurts to tell you to move on.
Why I cant think about you. Initially it was because I was trying to move on. In between I had moved on and I didnt really think about you. Now its because I shouldnt be thinking about you because I’m supposed to have moved on. Makes sense?
Yeah, it doesnt to me either.
Its just something I want to do for me. I just want to tell you that you dont have to force yourself into a relationship or try to date someone or anything just because I said I wouldnt until you did. Take your time. I’ll take mine. Maybe thats what we really need.
I regret telling you that I still loved you after we broke up. I regret not being the bitch that forgot you the second she stepped on the plane. I guess it would have hurt more. But you’d have been over it by now.
And I’m not doing this to make you let go. I’m doing this so that its easier for me to let go. Sorry if it sounds mean that way.
why would you sell an S2 for a BB? I’ll miss your spaceship :,(
Anything you can do… Nah, it wouldn’t help either of us if I responded to that. Lol. Not really.
Later. Love
PS.. I rewrote my smut. And I think its okay. Focusing on the emotions now. I guess I’m better at that.
PPS.. I dont miss Muscat. I never did. At all. I missed you. I missed Sanya. I missed Jeril and Lovi and Divi. Is that weird?
Then again, maybe different people react to things in different ways. Remember that little boy who committed suicide? His name just slipped my mind. But yeah, we had a conversation about that…
But muscat is practically my homeland. I was born there, spent over seventeen years of my life there. I dont miss it or anything in it. Is that weird?
